Some of these same things were said to me too. You put words to it in a way that I’ve never been able to.
I really convinced myself and allowed others to convince me that I was the problem. If I just believed the best in people and filled gaps with trust I wouldn’t have issues. It sounds so manipulative now.
I feel so much of the identity crisis amongst that staff experience.
There were some intense questions I was asked about myself, my leadership, or somebody else’s leadership—all questions with varying answers—but it always felt like there was only one correct answer.
I loved this quote…”But underneath it all… the model didn’t actually support a staff centered on intimacy with God. It was built around growth. Around results. Around performance—in the name of God.” Just 10 days before I was “let go” from LC I read a blog on “10 Signs You Are About to Burnout in Ministry” and I had nine of the ten. I knew it. This was not the fault of the church I worked for, it was mine. However, I think that working for so long in a metric driven environment, I too chose what feed my family over the nurturing of my soul. Perhaps there are other brothers and sisters who can do both but at that time I could not. I appreciate you sharing and giving a voice to others. If your voice was once taken away, then know, my sister, it is being restored. The good news is how really good our Father is to heal us and restore us! There are many great things ahead!
Some of these same things were said to me too. You put words to it in a way that I’ve never been able to.
I really convinced myself and allowed others to convince me that I was the problem. If I just believed the best in people and filled gaps with trust I wouldn’t have issues. It sounds so manipulative now.
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Ashton, I am so sorry for what was done to you, especially by people you trusted and who were suppose to be your pastors and leaders.
The strength required to speak out is incredibly immense. I’m proud of you for using your voice.
You do matter.
You are enough.
God cares for you!
Thank you for sharing. I await the rest of the journey.
Scott, thank you so much for the encouragement.
I feel so much of the identity crisis amongst that staff experience.
There were some intense questions I was asked about myself, my leadership, or somebody else’s leadership—all questions with varying answers—but it always felt like there was only one correct answer.
I loved this quote…”But underneath it all… the model didn’t actually support a staff centered on intimacy with God. It was built around growth. Around results. Around performance—in the name of God.” Just 10 days before I was “let go” from LC I read a blog on “10 Signs You Are About to Burnout in Ministry” and I had nine of the ten. I knew it. This was not the fault of the church I worked for, it was mine. However, I think that working for so long in a metric driven environment, I too chose what feed my family over the nurturing of my soul. Perhaps there are other brothers and sisters who can do both but at that time I could not. I appreciate you sharing and giving a voice to others. If your voice was once taken away, then know, my sister, it is being restored. The good news is how really good our Father is to heal us and restore us! There are many great things ahead!